The feeling of gratitude underpins optimism and the love of LIFE.
But it’s hard to feel grateful when your life-situation gets really, really bad, as it does for many people, especially toward the end.
Was Jesus feeling grateful when he cried out, “Why have you forsaken me”?
I don’t think so.
Feeling can be a trap. Much of what we call “spirituality” is generating feelings induced by assuming imagined postures ― part of our endless pursuit of self-construction.
Of course, gratitude is the point of it all, so really feeling grateful should be embraced with joy. But feelings come and go; and pursuing them is chasing the wind.
I may find myself at the last moment without a sense of gratitude. Who’s to say it won’t happen? The feeling of abandonment may be insuperable as it was for Jesus. What then?
Then, with Jesus I say, “Enough!”
All attempts to establish the “self” I have built with my thoughts and feelings collapse, and I become, finally, what I really am in this vast universe of things:
I plummet like a stone.
The plummeting is what I do.
The rest is not my business.